Went to the beach early in the morning (7 am to be exact) with Grace. I got some nice fresh ocean air and read a few chapters of Lullaby. I had to come back to Fullerton for work, while Grace stayed so she can reserve a pit for the jr high bonfire tonight.
Heard some news from Robert which kinda made me mad. But I wasn't too surprised.
I'm starting to hate my job. I hate the new girl. And there's another one coming. I hate putting up with stupid customers. If you get a $700 cell phone bill for going over your minutes, don't come in to our store and ask for help. You don't deserve any. Drama, drama, drama.
Eugene let me leave at 6. I went back to the beach with a few kids - Sarah Suh (Mike's younger sister), Anna Cho, James Chung, and his friend Kevin. They were quiet. Too quiet. I tried a few times to start a conversation, but failed miserably. When we got there, we found Grace sitting in the dark by herself. She had been reading and sleeping all day, that nerd. There were hot dogs and junk food, kids running around screaming their bloody little heads off -- the usual beach sights. Suelynn is so dang cute. "Sunburn from the bonfire." The waves looked friggin' AMAZING. They were glowing with these blueish streaks on the side, very very cool.
We didn't get stay that long. We got back to church around 10, and Paul and I had our practice session for Sunday.
EM looks like they're really bonding through this "family" thing. I don't feel like I'm part of it -- just an observer. I missed the retreat, which was when this whole thing pretty much came together, and I haven't been to any of their recent activities. Dustin tells me I'm part of his family, but whatever. I don't have a family.
This Chinese lady has been here for two hours. She's pissed 'cause she did an insurance claim and we're not giving her the phone box.
Yes folks. A MOTHER FREAKIN' BOX.
Now she's trying to return the phone (she can't) and get her money back (she can't). Either that or she wants another phone -- Siemens SL56, a $400 phone (oh hell no) -- or get THE MOTHER FREAKIN' BOX.
Eugene (our store manager) gave his two week notice yesterday.
He had been saying for a while that he'll quit, and I guess he finally went through with it. I dunno what's going to happen after he's gone. It's going to suck. Big time. I hate the new girl.
On the bright side, Eugene's parents might buy a cell phone store near my apartment (on Artesia and Dale) and he asked me if I would work there with him if it went through. Hell yeah! That would be fan-bloody-tastic!
How can a movie called Ping Pong be so damn good? That's the most boring title for a movie since... I dunno, I can't even think of one. I mean, come on. It's like changing Remember the Titans to Football. Hey, let's change The Lord of the Rings to Swordfights.
But get past the title and you have nice little movie about friendship. With a dash of Engrish. Oh, and some ping pong.
I stayed a bit longer at work since it was (surprisingly) busy. Then I ran around picking up the computer parts that I ordered last week. The last shipment came in today so I finally started building it.
I love doing this kind of stuff. It took me a few hours to get everything in -- I was extra careful so nothing would go wrong -- unlike last time, when the CPU got fried. Right now I'm in the midst of formatting the new hard drive and installing Windows XP. Ahh the sweet scent of a fresh new computer.
With Mark and the rest of EM gone for the weekend because of the retreat, I was "volunteered" to lead praise tonight for the youth group. I thought this was going to be my weekend off since Paul had "volunteered" to lead on Sunday, and I never have to worry about Fridays. I was given the news on Wednesday night, so I had basically two days to prepare. And even with those two days, I couldn't practice that much because of work.
Today I had "training for new hires" for about three hours, and after that I came home for a brief period to type out the powerpoint slides for tonight. I had to go back to work until seven, but thankfully Eugene let me go an hour early so I can go to church and set up. I was running around moving equipment, setting up the computer, and all that fun stuff -- talk about stress. I dunno why I was stressing out -- maybe because I haven't led praise for the youth group (by myself) in like... four years. And I didn't know what to expect -- how the kids would be, without all the instruments, without all the good equipment, without the backup singers -- just me and the guitar. I prayed for a bit before going up, which helped me calm down. And right after the first song -- "Breathe" -- my "fears" were gone. It was phenomenal. Kids were singing! No, praising! They were crying out, and it had barely even started. I didn't even have to look, I could hear it. In fact, I barely looked out like twice during the whole time. My eyes were closed -- and I praised right along with them.
That's right kiddos. From American Psycho to out-Neo-ing Keanu in Equilibrium to donning the cape and cowl in the new Batman flick. Great actor for a great character. And with Christopher Nolan (director of Memento) attached to helm it, I have high hopes for this bad boy.
More kickass stuff:
After Return of the King, this is the movie I've been waiting to see all year. It's gonna kick so much ass. You can have your Matrix. I'll take Tarantino over the Wachowskis any day.
Looks like I'm going to the EM retreat after all, albeit only for a day. Doojin has been generous enough to let me use his car this weekend, so I can head up to the retreat site on Saturday, after work. Thanks, Dooj.
Happy birthday to Eric Cho, the other half of "the Chonnection." To celebrate, we'll be feasting on goat goach, amazon style.
Notice the weather getting cooler (at night/morning)? Me too.
Dustin wrote an interesting post today on his xanga about him not being gay. The best part is in the last two paragraphs, where he comes up with a theory-of-sorts on "being a Man". Most of his points are true, I think. The only point I disagree on is when he says that the "so called gay people" are really just men with high levels of femininity that openly accept it.
But Dustin, not all gay guys are feminine.
I will not be going to the EM retreat next week. There's some stuff going on at work and I can't take another weekend off. I already got my share of worship and "getting back to God" at the youth group retreat, so I think it'll be alright. Since I'm not going, I won't be needing the guitar amp (yet). So I'm going to build a new computer. I will be getting the parts in next week. Exciting stuff.
Gotta love Fridays, especially the Fridays when I get paid. Sometimes the paycheck is lower than what I'm supposed to get (i.e. today) but it's still a lot better than what I used to get at Islands. It's strange actually having a positive balance in my bank account. I feel... secure. I can actually pay for stuff! Coooooool.
What to do with this new found security?
- Buy an amp for my electric guitar. I've been eyeing the Vox Valvetronix AD60VT (w/optional foot controller). This thing may look small, but sounds really nice and loud for its size. It has a lot of effects too, so I won't need to get additional pedals or anything.
- Build a new computer. My computer has served me well the past two years, but it can't handle the new games programs. I also want to start learning how to edit videos and pictures so I can be cool like Andy.
- Buy a bike. I was supposed to get a bike with Adrian as soon as I had enough money, but I kinda forgot about it until now. There's a two-for-one deal going on at this bike shop near my apartment. I dunno if he's still interested. Maybe we should just focus on finding a new place for us first.
- Save up for a car. Probably used. I have horrible/no credit, so I can't get a new car. What about my Civic? It's long gone. I didn't like it anyway.
- Pay back the people that I owe. When I was struggling without a job and money, several people helped me out. HUGE thanks to them, 'cause without them I dunno what I would have done. You know who you are. Most of them -- actually, all of them -- helped me out without asking me to pay them back, but I intend to.
I can't do all those things at once. I need to choose one. The most likely choice would be the Vox 'cause I really need an amp, especially for the EM retreat. But I'm not sure if I can go, with work and all. Even if I do go, I would have to go up late since I have some training thing that Friday. Saving up would be easy to do. Or is it? I could just pay back some of the people, but I can't pay them all back. I'd rather do that all at once, not one person at a time. Bike, I'm not too sure about. It would definitely be better than the skateboard (less falling = less scrapes = less chance of me looking like an ass), and faster too. I'd rather get a new computer than a bike, though.
If my life had been different -- had siblings, grew up in a different country, lived in a different time period, raised by both parents, born into a rich family -- would I still be the skinny, sarcastic shmuck I see everyday in the mirror when I brush my teeth? I'm not saying that I'm unhappy with how I turned out. It's just, days like today, I wonder...