Friday, January 31, 2003

Happy Birthday to you.

You are sorely missed.

Last Stop: This Town

you're dead but the world keeps spinning
take a spin through the world you left
it's getting dark a little too early
are you missing the dearly bereft?

taking flight and you could be here tomorrow
taking flight, well you could get here tonight

I'm gonna fly on down for the last stop to this town
I'm gonna fly on down then fly away
well alright

takin' a spin through the neighborhood
the neighbors scream "whatcha talkin' bout?"
'cause they don't know how to let you in
and I can't let you out

what if I was not your only friend in this world?
can you take me where you're going if you're never coming back?

I'm gonna fly on down for the last stop to this town
I'm gonna fly on down then fly away on my way

why don't we take a ride away up high through the neighborhood?
up over the billboards and the factories and smoke

I'm gonna fly on down for the last stop to this town
I'm gonna fly on down then fly away on my way
fly away

Wednesday, January 29, 2003

Kim JDSN is my dad.

He certainly feeds us like one.

Today's Fortune Cookie: You have a captivating style all your own.
Not really a fortune, but it'll do.

Locked in a Cage

I wanna be locked in a cage
I wanna be strapped in a chair (hey hey)
I wanna be where you are
if my insanity comes (hey hey hey)
wrapped up inside your...

I wanna break my legs
in case of thought to escape (hey hey)
keep the hammer out of my reach
if my pounding impulse comes (hey hey hey)
wrapped up inside your arms
locked up inside you

hold me down 'cause I want to know you
you bring calm to my rage
you are life and I'm thirsting for you
hold me, hold me, locked in a cage

(I'm locked...)

I love to be caught by you
I wanna be trapped in Your arms (hey hey)
your cage is rest to my bones
your cage is peace to my soul (hey hey hey)
wrapped up inside Your arms
locked up inside You

hold me down 'cause I want to know You
you bring calm to my rage
you are life and I'm thirsting for You
hold me, hold me, locked in a cage
Note to self: Find another job. They're going to keep you as a host For. E. Ver.

Monday, January 27, 2003


there's always something in the way
there's always something getting through
but it's not me
it's you
it's you

sometimes ignorance rings true
but hope is not in what I know
it's not in me, me
it's in you
it's in you

it's all I know
it's all I know
it's all I know

I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
not in me, me
in you
it's in you

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
not in me, me
in you
in you

it's all I know
it's all I know
it's all I know
in you
in you
it's in you
in you...

there's always something in the way
there's always something getting through
but it's not me, me
it's you
it's you
it's you
it's you...
(it's all I know...)

Work sucked.

That is all.

Sunday, January 26, 2003

From Googlism.

daniel is false prophecy
daniel is back
daniel is spiffy
daniel is no threat
daniel is good at not dying
daniel is losing it
daniel is wee suck
daniel is too boring
daniel is here
daniel is a rockstar
daniel is lost
daniel is pulling our collective legs
daniel is a toddler
daniel is butt ugly
daniel is a miracle child
daniel is safe in the lion's den
daniel is not happy
daniel is getting a little over protective of his new girlfriend
daniel is unable to obey
daniel is a games addict
daniel is the dalai lama
daniel is dead
daniel is too sexy for his shirt

Entertainment News

Super Bowl Commercials: The Raiders lost, but who cares? We watch the Super Bowl for one reason -- commercials. Especially for the upcoming movies.

The Matrix sequels: Trinity doing a flip while poppin' some caps at some poor fool? Check. Morpheus lookin' tough with his shades while talking like a wise, old sage? Check. High speed car chase? Check. Kickass kung fu? Check. Bullet-time? Check. Neo fighting 100 Agent Smiths? Check. Neo FLYING?! Bring it on. low resolution and high resolution.

The Hulk: Yes, you can tell it's CGI, but dammit, watching him throw a tank around like a toy just makes me want to jump and shout "HULK SMASH!" like a fanboy.

Helldorado: This new action movie, starring "The Rock", will have an interesting cameo -- the Terminator himself, Arnold Schwartzenegger.

Die Hard 4: Die Hardest: Yes, that's the real title. I remember actually joking about this waaaaay back when I was in elementary school. "Die Hard. Die Hard 2: Die Harder. Die Hard 3: Die Hardest. Ha ha. Man, I'm so clever." So I missed it by one sequel. Anyway, John McClane (Bruce Willis) has a daughter -- Britney Spears. She gets kidnapped, he goes to rescue her, blah blah blah. This has to be some sick joke. (not by me)

Houdini: Ang Lee, the director of "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" and "The Hulk", may decide to do his next film on the famous master illusionist. He has been trying to make a Houdini biopic for almost 30 years.

The Smurfs: New Line Cinema has apparently committed to a movie based on the classic cartoon.

The Princess Diaries 2: Mark and Phil should be glad to know the sequel is moving ahead quickly. Director Gary Marshall revealed some plot details on the sequel recently to Entertainment Weekly: "It takes place in Genovia. She's going back to be the princess and eventually run the country... they're going to try to marry her off, but she doesn't want to do that. And we have a moment where all the princesses from all the countries come together to see if they can do something about the state of the world." Sounds FANTASTIC, Gary.

Exorcist: The Beginning: Shooting for the prequel has begun in Morocco.

Metroid: Film rights to the game(s) have been snatched up by Zide/Perry Entertainment, the same guys that produced "American Pie" and "Final Destination". This will be the first live action movie based on a Nintendo franchise since 1993's Super Mario Bros. That's a GREAT sign.

Saturday, January 25, 2003

"All this for fuckin' teeth..."

Stay in the light.

Stay in the friggin' light.

We saw "Darkness Falls" at the Block. It was much better than I expected, and it even made me jump a couple of times. The beginning was the best part though. What the boy does in that scene, on his bed... that's EXACTLY what I do sometimes. I STILL do that. I'm such a pansy.

I'll be sleeping with the lights on tonight.

Few pics we took tonight:

Puffing the magic dragon before the movie started. I really do look high in the background.

Eric freaking out in the car. (I was "stabbing" him with a knife, which is off-camera.)

J. Lo getting "friendly" with the friendly neighborhood Spider-man.

Friday, January 24, 2003

"God is my judge"

I am feeling particularly antisocial tonight, so I stayed home and had solitary worship time. It went better than I expected; there's something very raw and pure about singing praise by yourself, not worrying about hitting a wrong note or playing the wrong chord, merely focused on the words. I also got a chance to get down and earnestly pray, which I haven't done since... the EM retreat? I'm feeling much better.

"The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust."

- Psalm 18:2


I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of you my King
I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life

and I surrender all to you, all to you
and I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm singing you this song, I'm waiting at the cross
and all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss
for the sake of knowing you, the glory of your name
to know the lasting joy, even sharing in your pain

and I surrender all to you, all to you
and I surrender all to you, all to you

The Wonder Years

Couple of weeks ago, Jane gave me a picture from last year's Vegas trip with the "FF" crew. (Fresno Friends, I prefer Fresno Five) It's been laying on the floor all this time 'cause I had forgotten about it. I finally put it in my photo album, which made me look through it. I've noticed a few things from the album:

- I was a chubby baby. Yes, even me. Where did all that baby fat go?

- I am was a crybaby. I'm crying in half of the pictures.

- I was a chick magnet when I was little. What happened? It's like I lost all the charm after puberty.

- My life as a teenager... does not exist. The pictures go from baby, toddler, elementary, jr. high commencement, then BAM, high school graduation. Talk about a gap.

- I like hats.

- No boy should ever wear shorts THAT SHORT, and socks THAT HIGH.

- I had a huuuuge head as a kid. Even Adrian would be impressed.

Thursday, January 23, 2003

I'm in a strange mood.
I dunno why I'm listening to these "blasphemous" songs.
The devil made me do it.

Blasphemous Rumours

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumours
but I think that God's got a sick sense of humour
and when I die I expect to find Him laughing

Dear God

dear God, hope you get the letter and
I pray you can make it better down here
I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer
but all the people that you made in your image
see them starving on their feet
'cause they don't get enough to eat from God
can't believe in you

dear God, sorry to disturb you but
I feel that I should be heard loud and clear
we all need a big reduction in amount of tears
and all the people that you made in your image
see them fighting in the street
'cause they can't make opinions meet about God
I can't believe in you

did you make disease and the diamond blue?
did you make mankind after we made you?
and the devil too?

dear God, don't know if you noticed but
your name is on a lot of quotes in this book
and us crazy humans wrote it you should take a look
and all the people that you made in your image
still believing that junk is true
well I know it ain't and so do you

dear God
I can't believe in...
I don't believe in...
I won't believe in heaven or hell
no saints, no sinners, no devil as well
no pearly gates, no thorny crown
you're always letting us humans down
the wars you bring, the babes you drown
those lost at sea and never found
and it's the same the whole world 'round
the hurt I see helps to compound
that father, son and holy ghost
is just somebody's unholy hoax
and if you're up there you'll perceive
that my heart's here upon my sleeve
if there's one thing I don't believe in...

it's you
dear God

Chop Suey!

Father into your hands I commend my spirit
Father into your hands
why have you forsaken me?
in your eyes forsaken me
in your thoughts forsaken me
in your heart forsaken, me oh

trust in my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die

Another day.

Another hour.

Another minute.

Another second.

Another goddamn life.

Wednesday, January 22, 2003


I just realized I missed Smallville. I can't watch it anymore since the art class ends after 9:30. No more Lana?! Damn you Alvarez, damn you!

Eric is a freak.

er0ck0 (11:14:50 PM): dont worry...ill work my magic..
DBones80 (11:14:58 PM): right
DBones80 (11:15:03 PM): your charm will save us
er0ck0 (11:15:07 PM): amen..

er0ck0 (11:22:42 PM): may the choing be with us...

Tuesday, January 21, 2003

Spring Semester - Day 1

I went to my one and only class I have this semester -- art. More specifically, ART 179 - Drawing for Non-Art Majors. Amy and I met up at church, then carpooled to school together. We parked at a neighborhood near the back parking lot since it was all full, and we didn't have a parking permit anyway. It turned out that they moved the art department to another building, on the OTHER SIDE of the campus. Actually, it wasn't even on the campus. It was across the street (Berkeley), in some ghetto building. So we did a lot of walking. The class didn't start off too well. Our teacher, Javier Alvarez, as I've already pointed out to Amy, looks like Chong from "Cheech & Chong" (he's on "That 70's Show" now), and mumbles when he speaks. And he mumbled his way through the syllabus for 90 minutes. Friggin' ay.

It got a lot better after that though. We drew everyone in the class -- including the teacher -- as each person went up to the front and basically talked about himself/herself. I don't really like drawing faces, especially real people, so it was really hard. I quit after about 6 people, and just listened as my classmates spoke. We have some interesting people in the class:

- There's Andre, he's a middle-child among 5 sisters, so he's naturally shy and quiet.
- There's Sofia, a 28-year-old makeup artist, who is "gorgeous" (according to Amy) and wants to get into interior design.
- There's Marcy, a 17-year-old highschool student from Hawaii; she's quarter Japanese, quarter Hawaiian, and "rest white." (she's kinda cute -- like all Amerasians)
- There's Tom Jones, yes like the singer. He's in his 30's and is taking the class because he's in architecture, but is not good at drawing; he hopes the class will help him get better.
- And there's Darlene, an old white lady that looks to be in her 60's (at least). She has a Master's degree in Business Accounting and used to work for the city, but is now retired. She's taking the class because one of her grandkids is really good at drawing cartoon characters, and he suggested it to her.

"Hobbies? I play guitar, but I suck. I skateboard, but I suck. I play basketball, but I suck. See a pattern here?"
"Is there anything you're GOOD at? Like, sleeping?"
"Uhh... videogames?"

When it was my turn, I told them about the whole "I don't know what to do with my life" deal and one lady -- I forgot her name -- suggested Game Design. Not a bad idea. Maybe I'll look into it.


hold me now
I'm torn between silence and violent expression
tired of believing everyone wants to care and cherish someone
I'm so scared of never having anyone

haunted by my abandoned dreams
tiny voices where would be screams

Monday, January 20, 2003

I live with this guy.

BiGbOyChOi19 (9:30:55 PM): i had an accident...
BiGbOyChOi19 (9:31:16 PM): i stained mah shorts
BiGbOyChOi19 (9:32:00 PM): brown juice

"Yeah, he was like, 'you haven't worked all day, why start now?' So I let him take it."

It seems like it's been a long time since my last post... but it's only been 3 days.

Life is chugging along.

I was at the Jr. High retreat during the weekend. It was supposed to be really kickback and informal, and it really was. Worship time... could've been better. Much better. This was the first retreat where I led praise, so I didn't know what to expect. But I did expect the kids to be little more... into it. More "vocal" than usual. It really felt like I was singing alone. I usually try not focus too much on the kids during praise, but this was too difficult to ignore. I dunno how I got through the songs, but I managed to stumble through each praise time, each one leaving me more drained and depressed. I guess that's why I was so tired yesterday. I slept at 8 pm. I haven't done that since... I can't even remember the last time I slept before midnight. I did get to know some of the kids, "bond with them" if you will. "Daaaaaaaaaavi" was his loud self as usual. There was this new kid, Jason, I believe he's Davi's friend -- he was absolutely hilarious. He looked a lot like a younger, skinnier (a lot skinnier) version of Simon (Woo). And he had this loud, nasally voice, and his laugh -- it cracks me up just thinking about it. He gained a couple of female "fans" at the retreat. Hilarious.

I slept about 13 hours. And I had some of the funkiest, weirdest, and craziest dreams I've ever had. I just can't remember them. Maybe it's for the best.

Speaking of dreams, I had another dream about her (last week). I think it's getting out of hand. It was never like this with anyone else. Not even Sebyul. I kinda got freaked out about it. No more.

Friday, January 17, 2003

Ladies and gentlemen, herrrrre's Ben.

"Tia's here."
"You know, she is."
"She's going out with Ryan."
"She did, or she is?"
"She is."
"I bet they have sex. Anal sex."

That's the funniest thing I've heard all day.

Thursday, January 16, 2003

"She goes to a special school."
"Oh, a 'special' school huh."
"No not like that. She's artistic."
"She's autistic? That explains it."

The fun never stops.
My hair blows.

Softer to Me

where am I? where are you?
there's so much time so little to do
we're busy doing nothing cause it's vanity we prize
you can't see nothing 'cause you can't see through your eyes
they're covered with a film, you're blinded by yourself
you're the one to blame but you pretend it's someone else

life could you be a little softer to me?
life could you be more gentle to me?
softer to me

I'm still alive, that much is true
I've never lied, well I guess I've told a few
there's nothing to see because I brought nothing to show
the coversation got too deep, I shrug and tell you I don't know
this world can be so hard, this world can be so cruel
sometimes I fall apart, I feel just like a useless tool

life could you be a little softer to me?
life could you be more gentle to me?
yeah I know this is a selfish plea
because Christ sacrificed his flesh on the cross for me
but this world is hard, it's cruel and I wish it would be...
softer to me

life could you be more gentle to me?

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

"It's such a stupid question, in my opinion. I mean how do you know what you're going to do till you do it? The answer is, you don't. I think I am, but how do I know? I swear it's a stupid question."

I was supposed to go see a counselor today, to figure out what classes I need to take so that I can graduate this semester. I was on the way to school, listening to Coldplay again, deep in thought, when I realized something.

My life is pointless.

I've been "studying" Law Enforcement at Fullerton College for almost 3 years now. 3 friggin' years! And I didn't have a job for 2 of those years. Why is it taking so long? And this Law Enforcement thing, is it for real? Do I REALLY want to be a cop, or am I just chasing after some stupid childhood fantasy that's probably a result of watching too many movies? If this is really what I want to do, then why am I not dedicated, like other people? They're actually going to classes, studying for exams, working out, and attending the academy. What the hell am I doing? All I do is drop classes so that "I can take them next semester." And if this is not what I really want to do, then what is? What am I going to do with my life? I have no direction... no focus... no talents... no guide.

But, I can ask God for help.

Of course I can. And I did. Right there. In the car. I've never felt so helpless, so useless, so... broken. Yet, I'm doubtful. I know God will answer me, but when will that be? When I'm 30? And what if he tells me to go do something that I can't even fathom being successful in, or that I'm TOTALLY against -- being a missionary comes to mind. What will I do? Run away? Say no to God?

I'm not scared of God not answering me, I'm scared of what his answer will be.

Have I been wasting my time? 3 years -- that's a lot of time wasted. I decided not to register in any classes this semester, except for that art class, which I'm taking with Amy. I have to figure out my plans, my goals, my life.

I'm so depressed right now... I just want to lie down on my bed, and sleep... forever.
I removed everyone from the blogger "team". Half of you never post, and half of you have your own blogs anyway. Plus you can write on the tag board (on the left) if you absolutely, postively have to write something on here. I'm sorry if this offends you, that is not my intent. I just want this to be my own.

Tuesday, January 14, 2003

“Answer the question! What is my favorite radio station?!"

Driving down the freeway at night listening to the new Coldplay album is just I can't put it into words. Ethereal ...that's the only word I can come up with. I guess the fog kinda helped too. I probably would've driven all the way to Riverside if it wasn't for my bladder's strong urge to relieve its contents (pee).

I have come to the conclusion that Kristen Kreuk (aka Lana Lang) is just too damn pretty. Whenever I see her on TV, I can't concentrate on what she's saying - I just stare at her face the whole time. Tonight's episode had something to do with her ex-boyfriend, some shape-shifting chick, blah blah blah ...I dunno, more Lana please! According to Eric, it was one of the best episodes. I agree. Lana was lookin' good.

We went to Guitar Center to look at some stuff. I mainly went to try out the VOX amp that I REALLY REALLY want, but they didn't have it. I played on some Marshalls instead. They didn't impress me much.

I STILL haven't registered for classes. Classes start next Tuesday.

I STILL haven't told the managers at work that I'm going to quit. They need a two-week notice. And classes start next Tuesday.

I STILL haven't started preparing for the jr high retreat, which is this Friday. I'm doomed. They're doomed. And classes start next Tuesday.
just wanted to say hi

Far, Far Away

and Peter was a liar
a traitor just like me
and Judas was a hypocrite
and Paul a Pharisee
when truth can be so distant
and hope evades our reach
Peter swam across the water
and found it on the beach

I hear they’ll hang you upside down
stretched across two boards
for hearing distant voices
and crossing to the Lord

can you hear the bells are ringing far, far away?
can you hear the voices singing far, far away?
I know that one day soon a song shall rise
you’ll hear it with the sleep still in your eyes

Monday, January 13, 2003

That bitchy girl got cut from Joe Millionaire.

"Mojo" is still in it.
hahahha o man...
my mom is funny...
but ya... i dunno what she meant by adult toy...

Highlight of 1/13/2003

Steve: "Look what I've got Boy."
(takes out a black device out of a plastic bag)
Dan: "What? Oh, Socom?" (he borrowed the broadband adapter for the Playstation 2 and Socom - a multiplayer game)
Steve: "Yeah. Tomorrow."
Steve's Mom: "What is it?" (in Korean)
Steve: "Nothing."
Dan: "It's a toy."
Steve's Mom: "Toy? Adult toy?"

Pirate Joke Day

1. Did you guys hear about that new Pirate movie?

Yeah. I guess it's going to be rated Arrrrrr.

That's Sung Chi's favorite joke of all time.

2. A pirate walks into a bar. The bartender says “Hey you’ve got a steering wheel in your crotch.” The pirate says “Arrrr it’s driving me nuts.”

3. A kid dresses up as a pirate for Halloween. He goes up to a woman's house. She answers the door. He says "Trick or treat" and she replies "Ahoy there, pirate. Where are your Buccaneers?" He says "They're on my bucking head, you bucking idiot!"
Everything evolves.
Including you.

Friday, January 10, 2003

yay! u're 21..i mean 23! hahaha...happy b-day!
*hapPy BirThdAy dAnieL* !
yea you look younger... haha when i first saw you i thought you were like 19 or 20 haha its a good thing :)

"Thanks Goku. I mean, Gohan."

Thanks to all those who came out today and hung out, and those who remembered my birthday (or at least pretended to). My birthdays are usually pretty crappy, but this one turned out actually good.

I wrote this big paragraph on what I did today, but it sounded really boring and drawn out, so I just deleted it.

I'll just point out the highlights:

- I got 3 DVD's: American History X, First Blood (Rambo), and The Sandlot.
- we ate at Red Robins, and I ended up with 4 uh ...dolls. I gave one to this guy host, who wanted to give it to this girl host. I guess he has a thing for her. What's a guy to do?
- we went to Eric's house to watch DVD's, but instead we ended up playing Mario Party. It was really fun. The skiing game and the obstacle course team game were the funnest ones.
- I won.

I'm 23.
You know how when you were a little kid, you would imagine what you would be like at a certain age, like ...23? Well I don't look anything like how I imagined. Don't I look much younger? Or am I just smoking crack? I guess it's a good thing.

Thursday, January 09, 2003

happy day of birth to you, ma special special dawg.
2 taps an' a peace sign foo.

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

crazy noon-mool . . . plz

For Grace

well she's walking through the clouds
with a circus mind that's running wild
butterflies and zebras and moonbeams
and fairly tales
that's all she ever thinks about
riding with the wind

when I'm sad she comes to me
with a thousand smiles
she gives to me free
it's alright, she says it's alright
take anything you want from me

fly on, little wing
oO Picture Day :)

this is a real picture of a real bear slipping :) haha

Picture Day


Gandalf kicking Orc ass in "Return of the King".

Aragorn as the King.

Tuesday, January 07, 2003

Grace is gone.



Eric: Fool, I thought you were the underground MASTA. What you asking me for?

Minhee: It's just one of those disposable one-time-use ones.

Dijonnaise: You friggin' Crack. Me. Up. So where da chicks at? Bring 'em on!
i was skimming thru YM (not cuz i bought it mind you. my roommate gets them in the mail for free),
when i read that girls dig lanky skinny boys as opposed to the buff meaty ones.
*ding ding ding*
bones, you're in season!
oO camera~! what kind?!
oh and remember... A beautiful Mind
where do you get all these underground spills???
hook me up!!!
Game Boy Advance SP. Paul would love this.

Entertainment This Morning by Daniel Cho

The Hobbit: A while back the film rights to "The Hobbit", which is basically a prequel to "The Lord of the Rings", were obtained by New Line. Peter Jackson isn't too keen on the idea of directing the film, but hasn't ruled it out completely. "People ask if I'm going to do 'The Hobbit' as my next film, and the answer is no. I think when I'm done with this trilogy I'll need a break from this theme and move on. I'm not saying never, but certainly not immediately."

Batman: The Frightening: This is all a big, unconfirmed rumor (for now). Two writers turned in a first draft entitled "Batman: The Frightening" just before Christmas. The script sets up 'The Scarecrow' as the villain, and Batman fights alone (no Robin or Batgirl), although the roles of Alfred and Commissioner Gordon have been expanded. The script also depicts Batman as more of a detective than a superhero, and takes on a darker tone than any of the previous four films (especially Batman Forever and Batman and Robin) - more like the animated series.

This is definitely good news, if it's real. I love the animated series, and this is a step in the right direction for the franchise.

Smallville: Christopher Reeve will guest star as a brilliant scientist and "lend some guidance to a young Clark Kent". The episode will air in February.


Eight Legged Freaks 2: Producer Dean Devlin is in talks with David Arquette to star in and Ellory Elkayem to direct a sequel to the giant spider flick.

Did anyone other than me, Paul, and Dooj see that movie?

Kill Bill - teaser: This played before the showing of "Gangs of New York", and it's now online in Quicktime format. Perfect editing to the music, which, by the way, kicks ass.

We got this, the Matrix sequels, and "The Return of the King". It's gonna be a great year.

Cradle 2 the Grave - full trailer: Can Jet Li stop making movies with DMX? Please? Well, this actually looks fairly decent. But I've said that about every American Jet Li movie, and look how "decent" those turned out.

Tears of the Sun - full trailer: Navy Seals in Nigeria. Starring Bruce Willis. I bet Steve is drooling already.

One question: why are Nigerians speaking English to each other?

"I'm the (trivia) king of the world!"

silent words from my heart to you
my empty filled, filled up with you

I slip another smile in your pocket
my heart is racing to you like a rocket


I finally got to listen to the CD we made for Grace.
Amy sounded awesome.
Andy was great, especially on "Blackbird."

I sounded horrible.


No need to see Amelie, we basically saw the whole movie tonight. (in fast foward)


Joe Millionaire = my new favorite show.


Watching four of the most "clueless" girls trying to cook was friggin' hilarious.
At one point, three of them were on their cell phones, asking various people (ie. their mothers) various questions, such as "how to turn on the stove."
Now that's entertainment.


Quote of the day: "It's like the blind leading the blind." - Grace, after "teaching" others how to cook.


I got a camera. My very first one. I can't believe I've never had a camera.

Monday, January 06, 2003

fathomless your endless mercy
weight I could not lift
where do I fit in this puzzle?
what good are these gifts?
not a martyr or a saint
scarcely can I struggle through
all that I have ever wanted
was to give my best to you

Lord search my heart
create in me something clean
you see flowers in these weeds

Sunday, January 05, 2003

It's good to be home.

Back from the EM retreat, and the 2 week break from school and work is officially over. It's been pretty crazy.

- I went to Vegas, San Diego, and whereever our retreat site was (Valencia?).
- I slept with a bunch of guys in the same hotel room.
- I spent New Year's Eve watching chick flicks. Alone.
- I learned ...stuff about a friend. (and she learned stuff about me)
- I watched two movies starring Leonaro Dicrapio. (one good, one bad)
- I watched TTT three times.
- I "learned" how to levitate a card.
- I played and recorded a few songs, and put 'em on a CD for Grace.
(she's going away to D.C. for about 5 months)
- I made a CD for Amy (real songs, without my horrible voice), who seem to love it AND me a little too much. It's kinda scary.
- I didn't get to play paintball. Someday...
- I got some "advice" and "suggestions" on this whole GIRL thing. Not very helpful. There's no way in hell I can OR will do any of that.
- I learned that it's not about me, it's about God. I may not have gifts, I may not be charismatic, I may not be agreat in anything I do, but that's okay because God is all powerful, and he can accomplish his will through me if I come to him, broken.

It's good to be back home, being able to just relax in my comfort zone here.
I go back to work tomorrow. At least I still have a couple of weeks before school starts again.

Friday, January 03, 2003

And the winner is...

The poll is over.
Here are the results:

Should I TELL HER??
48 % for Tell WHO WHAT??
44 % for YES! Go for it!
3 % for NO! You have no chance!
3 % for Hmm. You should wait and see what happens.
27 total votes

So half of the voters had no idea what the hell I was talking about.
Good. :)
And the 44% of you, what the hell's wrong with you people? Go for it? Are you MAD?!

This was an interesting vote. It surprised me, and it also made me laugh:

blahonyoo selected YES! Go for it!
Time of selection(EST):12/13/2002 5:15:57 PM

I'll put up a new poll soon, and maybe a new quiz as well.

Thursday, January 02, 2003

Paul: Battle Royale kicks ass. And not in a "man, that part when he shoots that girl with the uzi was cool" way. It's not an action movie. It's cool in a way Fight Club is cool. It's a social commentary. I dunno if you're into that stuff (I am), but this movie will definitely stay on your mind and make you think.

The EM retreat is tomorrow.
I was actually pretty excited about this retreat, until this week at least.
Why not anymore? Well, read the previous post. (1/1/2003)

Lot of people are coming, over 40 people.
Some unexpected ones too.

No paintball at retreat, dag nab it.


I gave Amy her CD today, hopefully she'll like it.
Apparently Julie wants one as well. You really want one? Tell me what you want on it.

battle royale

i heard of that a while back and forgot about it.
it came to mind recently when i was chatting with john about japanese movies.
but i couldnt think of the title.

thanks for the reminder.
Some random pieces from my conversation with a friend.

carinobonito (12:04:01 AM): and u were 10 when that happened
carinobonito (12:04:05 AM): give yourself some credit
carinobonito (12:04:10 AM): u've growna bit
carinobonito (12:04:19 AM): and u could use this chance to stretch yourself

carinobonito (12:06:23 AM): HIGHLY POSSSIBLE
carinobonito (12:06:33 AM): HIGHLY POSSIBLE!!!!
carinobonito (12:06:42 AM): HIGHLY FREAKING POSSIBLE!!!!!

carinobonito (12:06:46 AM): SUCK IT UP
carinobonito (12:06:49 AM): YOI'RE A BIG BOY
carinobonito (12:07:00 AM): U CAN DO IT!!!!

carinobonito (12:41:47 AM): U CANNNN!!!!!
carinobonito (12:42:22 AM): reallllly

carinobonito (1:28:03 AM): ya?
carinobonito (1:28:10 AM): nice to meet u daniel cho

Wednesday, January 01, 2003

I put a tagboard on here (it should be on the left side) for any comments, thoughts, complaints.
This gives a chance for people who are just visiting, haven't been invited, don't know how to post, or are just too lazy to get on Blogger to post on here.
Tag away.

Happy New Year.

everything's so blurry and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up

can you take it all away?
can you take it all away?

everyone is changing there's no one left that's real
to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel

can you take it all away?
can you take it all away?

I seriously doubt this year will be better than the last.
Not that 2002 was all that great or anything, but I'm off to a rock start on 2003.

I feel like I'm reverting back to my old self again.
Back into my shell.
Back to shutting everyone out.
Back to my "fuck the world" attitude.

These last couple of days, I've been dead inside.
I dunno what happened, I can't recall what caused it.
Right before we left for "the outreach" on Tuesday, I felt all the energy leaving me.

I spent New Year's Eve alone in the hotel room.
I watched chick flicks all night: She's All That, Never Been Kissed...
I had an interesting dream that night. (probably the result of those movies)

I woke up so many times during the night/morning.
I'm surprised I didn't snap and blow up on the guys.

I feel bad for the guys, they probably thought I was being a moody bastard.
At least they had fun.

The timing ...just sucks. The retreat is 2 days away.
haha hi daniel~! happy new year...

note dustin: i correctly posted on new year .. hah! so i am the first
Happy New Years!!
I'm the first one to post in 2003!
haaaaaaapppy new years!
...or at least try to have one yaknowmsayin? werd

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